oh my god!

The question i ask myself today .. why the hell did i ever create this blog?

The answer is not to spread god's voice as i once remarked in my first and only post known to humankind. The thing is ..whether god exists or not is debateable in itself. Times have changed .. I may sound like an old grumpy grandmaa but it's true...at least for me. It's almost been an year and a half since I started blogging.. I mean since my first blog post :). and the frequency of my posts could be compared to sighting halley’s comet every 74 years or so..u only see it once in life.. or twice if ur lucky enough.

Over this period of time change has come about in heaps for me .. change in thoughts, beliefs, motivations and yeah ..change of country.

I don’t know why but i want to share it..

Since childhood we are taught lies .. though “lies” have negative connotations, I don’t mean to suggest that it is a sin to tell these subtle lies. The belief about the existence of “all powerful” god has diminished in my books. There is no god..i have reached at this conclusion not only on the basis of radical freethinking but some distrust and anguish led me to feel that all that is happening around us is because the world is corrupt end to end and THERE IS NO GOD. The doubt was always there..it turned into a belief .. or rather no belief now.

Another piece of unnecessary conviction people are still banking on is religion. Religion has been the cause of more pain and misery than anything else.  In my case the things were a little dissimilar .. I never got the logic behind religious chores and I have not found a single convincing reason to follow any religion. I don’t hate the people who follow a religion and neither do I feel they are ignorant.. because sometimes..  unknowingly or knowingly the fear of god makes them do the right thing...i mean only "sometimes".

Another major change is the change of city..well country I must say. As I read somewhere -big cities attract ambitious people, and in subtle ways the city sends you messages..like.. you should make more money.. you should be happening .. you should be better looking and I am still stubborn to answer most of the questions. Money was never a motivation .. but how things have changed. Anyway I am still living the “foreign land” dream since 2007.

So folks u get the idea of how to write a blog without writing anything meaningful.. cmmon guys im not here to write literary account that some critique could analyse.. this is just a conversion of arbitrary thoughts  into  hasty keystrokes.

Signing off.. promise i’ll be back soon..though promises are meant to be broken ;).